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Here are a few of pictures i took. I'm a lousy photographer.

model : Samira Shahab

location : cibubur

year : 2009

model : Ilmarineta

location : klub rasuna poolside

year : 2006

model : Indah Ayu Putri

location : klub rasuna poolside

year : 2006

Bali : The Sweet Escape

I plan to go to Bali with a friend next monday for five days. Temporarily escaping from the madness and boredom we have in Jakarta. I've never been to Bali before, so it will be my first time stepping these feet to that beautiful island. We travel in budget, so we decided to book the cheapest airplane ticket for that date by Lion Air (1,435,000IDR for two persons, round trip) and the cheapest hotel / guest house we can find. We haven't decided where to stay yet.

I have 5,000,000IDR (approx $500) in my saving and actually it's the money i save to go to the USA next august (or september). I have to collect $5,000 to go to the USA, $4,500 more to go. But whatever, i'll find some other way to get that money.

Can't wait to fly next monday! Girls day out! Yippeeeeee!

Start Over

She said I think I'll go to Boston..

I think I'll start a new life,

I think I'll start it over, where no one knows my name,

I'll get out of California, I'm tired of the weather,

I think I'll get a lover and fly him out to Spain..

I think I'll go to Boston,

I think that I'm just tired

I think I need a new town, to leave this all behind..

I think I need a sunrise, I'm tired of the sunset,

I hear it's nice in the Summer, some snow would be nice..

Augustana || Boston

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I think this lyric describes me best right now, except i don't live in CA and my start over place is not Boston or anywhere in MA. I live in Jakarta, Indonesia and i want to leave all the past behind, go some place i'm not familiar of and start a new life. That place will be California, i hope, but not in LA cos my mom's best friend lives there so it would be useless to use the word "start over" cos someone knows me. I want to go some place far far away from my home land. That place has to be an english speaking country, so either USA or UK. Not Oz cos it's too close from home. I'm working my way there now. It's my dream and i will make it come true... or at least i hope so.

Dreams

whats wrong in having them? not that i would disappointed when they did not come true. yea well maybe a little. okay, a lot. i have dreams i want to accomplish. i want to do something for my life. i dream big. nothing's wrong with that right?

but it's so hard if you are in my position where nobody supports you. i kinda hope my family and friends will support me, but what can i say. i came from a broken family and they seem like they have their own problems, i have no friends, and by friends i mean real friends, not just a bunch of people i know. so yeah. i think i can deal with that.. or not. idk..

i'm just too afraid to tell them about this, about my dream. i'm afraid they'll laugh at me. i dream too big. i don't have anybody i could trust. esp my family who, btw, never even once support me.

my glass is empty!! not half empty but really is empty. i need to find the water to fill it up. wish me luck.

Believe

One minute's fading

One minute's past

But I've got this moment

To make it all last

I'm standing before you

Taking my chance on

Everything I never thought that I could be

Cuz you can do almost anything

If you just believe

You can move mountains with dreams

The higher you climb

The better it gets

Cuz you will see things

You'll never forget

If you just believe

It's like I'm falling through my own fears

They used to haunt me, but now they're not here

There's no looking back, my future is clear

No giving up

And I'm holding on when it gets rough

Cuz you can get through most anything

If you just believe

You can move mountains with dreams

The higher you climb

The better it gets

Cuz you will see things

You'll never forget

If you just believe

No one says it's easy

And no one says you have to be perfect

But as long as you try

You're always gonna find

It was worth it

If you just believe

You can move mountains with dreams

The higher you climb

The better it gets

Cuz you will see things

You'll never forget

If you just believe

You can move mountains with dreams

If you just believe

You can move mountains with dreams

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This song made my week. The lyrics are so strong, emotional, inspirational, and it even makes me feel better and stronger. I can't stand the tears when i hear this song. Suzie Mcneil really pulled it off.

Atheism Rant

Some of you might know KimDonesia, an Australian ex-muslim turn atheist. She's kinda famous on youtube. I twat her today about her new "belief" a.k.a atheist. I was just speaking my own opinion about the thing called atheism or disbelieve in God and then she replied and rant about it.

First off, i don't really care what she believe. I don't care what was her religion, I don't care if she's an atheist, and I don't even care if she worship a stone or an ashtray or whatever.

I have two 'make sense' reasons why i think believing in God is so much better than disbelieve.

1. If i'm an atheist and one day i die and i am wrong about the existence of God (God do exist), then you can imagine what God will do to me in hell. But otherwise, if i'm non-atheist (i do believe in God) and one day when i die i find out that i am wrong (God don't exist) then i have nothing to lose. Right?

2. Believing in God automatically makes you believe in boundaries, limits, and rules. Imagine what will this world be without any boundaries etc. It will be a total chaos.

Afaik, atheists usually questioning everything. If they can't touch it or see it, then they won't believe that it's real. Atheists usually believe in science. So my question is, can science explain Adam n Eve?